Well Krisita,

Once you get over the part of feeling bad...I think that should be addressed first.  You can do this....

When I was *part vegetarian*....I would make beet soup, cabbage soup, egg drop soup, bok choy soup, chicken noodle soup without the chicken.  I would cook chicken by boiling it.  I would use the broth for my soup and give the chicken to my husband.  This worked out great for my family.  They would make chicken salad or eat the meat with vegetables....they even ate my soup. There are all kinds of creative ways to accomodate special diets.  I know most vegetarians could not and would not use my methods due to the broth being from a chicken, however, there are many ways to cook meat and not eat it.  Mainly, if you're going to do so, do so with joy and happiness.  This is really important when you are cooking for someone and yourself - whether it be with meat or not.  You can make a full course meal using meat.  You can make several side dishes for yourself that are vegetarian to compliment the meat dish.  I always try to have at least one dish of dhal, 2 vegetables, rice or grain and then of course, the meat.  Take care and Best Wishes,